is it better to lie to yourself to make others happy for now or to make your self happy while worrying about being accepted for your sexuality?

Thoughts:

this is the first time i've been happy in a while. thinking about uni makes me miserable, thinking about acting makes me happy!
Mood: happy, Intensity: 1
is it better to lie to yourself to make others happy for now or to make your self happy while worrying about being accepted for your sexuality?
Mood: neutral, Intensity: 5
wish some people would stop lying, manipulating or presenting falseness to or around me to better themselves thinking it doesn't affect me in any way
Mood: sad, Intensity: 5
i'm moving off to college soon, and i'm scared, sad, excited, and neural at the same time, if that makes sense.
Mood: nervous, Intensity: 2