i can't work out why i hate this girl so much

Thoughts:

i have physical therapy again today. pretty much fucking done with it i've gone do many times i can't even count.
Mood: sad, Intensity: 3
i can't work out why i hate this girl so much. she's literally done fuck all wrong but i'm obsessed with hating her, i can't stop.
Mood: mad, Intensity: 3
i'm so not fine right now and i don't know the reason, i just felt sad. i want to burst into tears and keep crying till i calm down.
Mood: mad, Intensity: 2
i'm so obsessed with gratification. if i don't get atleast a couple of likes right away on, say, a tweet, then i want to delete it right away
Mood: peaceful, Intensity: 1
i've literally binged netflix for a whole month. haven't left the house unless i was going to cheer practice and i didn't even realize it
Mood: peaceful, Intensity: 5
i can't even trust telling my own mother my thoughts without my brother listening in and using it against me in arguments and when i'm vulnerable.
Mood: happy, Intensity: 2
i need a therapist but my mom keeps saying the school guidance counselor but honestly they would just be useless! it's summer and not even school!
Mood: mad, Intensity: 3
i cant believe it she doesnt wanna freakin talk again she taunts even thou i freakin like her. i cant take it😭😡
Mood: mad, Intensity: 5