I feel so cold...I feel as if I'm turning into one of my girlfriends ex's...I took my anger out from my parents and threw it at her....I feel like such a peice of shit...I haven't slept a wink all night....I feel horrible..ig I really am no different then her ex's....I can't even make her smile really smile lately....all I see is hurt and sadness in her eyes...because of me she's hurting...because of me she's sad...I feel like such trash...why..
I feel like I'm forcing myself to have "feelings" for others... I know I'm doing it. It's like I'm aware of it but it keeps happening. I like them yeah but not in a sense where they make me feel butterflies or whatever and it's really sad and annoying but I can't stop doing it smh.